my love

just real quick. i know that this is an old picture because look at how small garrett is, but my wife asked me the other day why i never had her on this blog. i told her because i don't have any pictures of her, but she was just wondering why i didn't even write about her. i obviously love my wife, but i think that the kids get in the way of that love sometimes. i know that this isn't right, but i think all of us as parents do this, and even those of us that are christians do it. we forget the one person that has been there with us all along, God. let's try not to do that anymore, instead lets dwell on the good that He has done for us. by the way honey, i love you alot!!!! thanks for giving me such great kids and beautiful kids (luckily they take after you!).

nasal excavators

hey, just wanted you to know that like father like son. this is my little man and i believe that i am going to start a new blog just about my boy. the other morning i was laying in bed with garrett walking around our room and he got into some jounals that my wife has. one of them was one we got when we got married that we were supposed to journal in that takes us through our marriage, the other was one that we got when olivia, our oldest, was born. we were supposed to write to her and tell her about herself. as i watched him looking at these i thought about the fact that he has nothing like that at all. i got a little sad thinking that and so i have decided to set up a blog just about this little tike. i'm trying to out-do olivia for one thing. she always gets the best stuff, so i thought that i would give garrett something a little more special (not to mention i hate writing stuff with a pen and paper). i'll let you know more later. God bless you, and God bless my little man!

joy of being a father

i have to say that God has been very good to me. He has given me the best kids in the world. the past couple of days have not been the easiest and my head has been very low at times and i have been pretty depressed, but when i come home and i hear that precious word, "DADDY" or "DADEM" as my son calls me, i let all of those cares go to the side. they brighten my day more than anything else. now the only problem is that i have to raise them the way He wants them raised. Lord help me!!!!

our kidz

some of you were probably wondering what our kids looked like. i came across a web site of sam bills and i saw his pretty little girl and i thought that i would share with you what our kids look like. they are my pride and joy and they brighten my day when i get home (even on the best of days). they make my life so much better. i think that i'll keep them. we are also expecting our third, which will be a little girl. we are so excited about the third. i can't get over the wonderful children God has given us, especially considering who their father is. well i am expecting some teens anytime now, so have a wonderful day and keep those heads up. God Bless.

my make-up is done

i thought that i would let y'all know that tonight, here in ocean city, nj, we are having a great night. we did our make-up and right now i am wearing what you might call a glam look. seriously. we are having a wonderful time here in nj. we are playing in the surf and sun and we have had wonderful weather here the whole week. welp i must leave you for this evening, but i will keep writing you letting you know what is going on here. God bless you all.

going on vacation

jess and i are very excited to announce that we will be going on vacation this friday and will not be back for a week. this is so exciting because we have not been out to nj for a long time and we have not had a vacation in a long time. just pray for us, though, because garrett has a viral infection and is not a very happy camper right now. i'm hoping that the 12 hour drive will cheer him up though. HA! HA! i'll be away from my computer for a week though, so i hope that you all don't miss me too much. God Bless!

announcement

jess and i are very excited to tell you that we just had our ultrasound for our new baby. we will be having a... girl!!! we are so excited and i just couldn't wait to share this new with the world. we have been very blessed and God is always good. just a little update, yesterday i posted that i might boycott all pro sports. when i told jess about this she told me that she would give up reality tv if i gave up pro sports. this has really got me thinking, because i am soooooo tired of reality tv. i'll keep you updated. God bless!

it's me again

well i know that it has been a while since i have posted anything, so i thought that i would write and let you know that i am still alive. i am looking forward to my vacation to new jersey. we will be going to the shore for a week and i can't wait to get there. the one thing that i hate about new jersey is that terrell owens lives there. i don't know if you are keeping up lately with all of the news of t.o. or not but i am tired of his belly-aching. i have been reading in isaiah and i found something in chapter 40 that has really got me worried about t.o.'s life and where he is going to end up if he doesn't get over himself. in isaiah 40:23-24 the Lord says, "He brings princes to naught and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing. No sooner are they planted, no sooner are they sown, no sooner do they take roo in the ground, than he blows on them and they wither, and a whirlwind sweeps them away like chaff." what worries me about all of this is that t.o. is making himself out to be a god and that is a problem. it says here that God made t.o. and just as easily as he made him he can take him out of commission. you would think that t.o. would see this since last year he was taken out of commission for so many weeks with a broken leg, but he still seems to think that we should bow at his feet and worship the very ground that he walks on.
another thing that bothers me about all of this is that t.o. is making so much money but that won't make him happy, he just has to have more. does he not understand that there are firemen out there that are doing their jobs as volunteers? there are policemen and teachers that barely get by on their salaries, but he is playing a child's game and yet he wants to be paid how much? i haven't decided yet, but i am so tired of hearing about all of these "sports stars" that aren't making enough money. i am really thinking about boycotting pro sports altogether, which is really hard for me to say since i live for sports, but i am really considering. do we not understand that there are far better things for us to spend our time and money on rather than sports. instead of sitting on our butts on the weekend watching the boob tube, we could be outside with our children or nephews or neices or whatever teaching them how to play the game the way it was invented to be played.
i know that i have rambled on for a while, but i just had to get this out. like the name of this blog is called, i am a very confused man trying to think all of this through. i hope that may be God has said something to you through this and if you don't agree with me, then i am sorry, but not really. God bless you all and good day.

don't be afraid

well... this is my first blog and i'm at a loss of what to write. there has been a lot of things going on in my life as of late and i was just going to share those, but i'm not quite sure where to start. there has been a lot of death in my world lately. there was a pastor in town that was helping a person clear some trees around a power line and he got to close and was electrocuted. then my wife and i just found out that a couple that we went to college with and that i worked with for a short time just lost their 3 month old daughter. pretty depressing, eh? this life sucks, huh? let me tell you something that doesn't suck though. Jesus the Christ died for you. something has been ringing in my head the past couple of weeks and i just feel that i have to share it with you (whoever is reading this). God has done some pretty amazing stuff in my life and i'm sure that He has done some pretty wonderful stuff in yours too. we (Christians) have to start sharing what God has done for us. if we don't, we will get lost in this world of hatred and sin. Jesus told us in the great commission that we have to go out and make disciples of all the nations. what does that mean? that means we are obligated to go out and tell others what God has done in our lives. nothing more, nothing less. we have to go out and tell what God has done. we are not responsible for saving them, that is God's responsibility, but we are told that we must go out and tell others about Him. it pains me to hear of all of the death that is going on, but i know that at least the 2 that i have talked about here i will see again in heaven. what really hurts is to watch the news and see all of the death that they talk about there. that is what really bothers me because i don't know where they stand with God. will i ever see them again or will i just hear their screams as they are tormented in hell? God has done so much for me, from being able to get out of bed in the morning to giving me a wonderful family to love and that loves me. He also sent His one and only Son to die for us and that we might be able to come to Him through the sacrifice of the His perfect Son. if you are a non-Christian reading this right now, i want you to know that God knows your name. God knows everything about you and that he even knows how many hairs you have on your head. He sees everything that you are doing. but know this too... nothing, yes i said nothing, can seperate you from the love of God. He wants you to come to Him and just sit with Him. if you are a Christian that is reading this i want you to know the same thing. sometimes we forget about this. don't fall away from the Scriptures, but just fall in the arms of God and allow him to comfort you. and don't forget, tell others what God is doing in your life.

Matthew 28:16-20